sad life

Cant Forget Her No Matter Wad I Do. I Already Tried To Think Of Other Things But It Doesnt Work. I Used A Penknife To Make A Slight Cut On My Right Hand Yesterday. Guess That I Loved Her Too Much Its Crazy. I Just Cant Face The Reality That Shes Taken.Someone Please Help Me, Im Going Crazy Any Minute Now. If This Continues , I Might Not Even Survive For The Next Few Weeks. Please Any1 Just Talk To Me To Make Me Happy So That I Can Forget Her. PLEASE

Another new record

Omg guys its crazy. I havent slept for like 5 days. Even if i did its only 1hr sleep. Wahahaha. For sure get panda eyes. :p . Well so here i am posting 1hr befpre my alarm clock goes off. Gotta wake at 6am to go to health promotion board for spine checkup. This checkup very mafan de. Everytime morning de . Wan play games also cannot. Hahas. Maybe after the checkup i will come home and play maple !! Choing lvls for 3rd job , jiayous samuel , 5 more levels. :)

New record

Hi guys. I had a new record. I havent slept for 3 days in a row. Tonned the whole night. :)

Dun know wad happened

Hi every1 . Ever since crystal told me that she and sebastian were steading. I felt like crying everyday especially midnight. I woke up today morning just to find myself crying. I woke up and my eyes were watery. Whenever i think of her, i feel that i have let her down. I felt like crying but i told myself to be strong.and ever since that incident, i have always be tonning everyday. Each day i will at least cry once for her. Now i know to cherish wad is important to me before it's too late. But im too late now , she cant return to me. I just have to move on painfully.


P.S Crystal , i love you ...

Playing maple

Hi everyone. Im playing maple atm. Dun feel like sleeping. Hahas . Yea im choinging levels as im curious about the 3rd and 4th job skills . Although its late , i dun feel like tired . Maybe i slept too long yesterday.and of course im thinking of her. :) . Nights to those who are turning in for the night.

It's True

Hey Crystal , It's True That I Love You . But I Never Do Anything To Show It Because I Know That U Belong To Sebastian Now . So Please , Dun Say I Dun Mean It Again. I Feel Hurt Whenever You Say That . Dun Feel Guilty , Its My Fault For Falling In Love With You . If I Cry , U Dun Need Feel Guilty Too . Maybe If You Are Not Feeling Guilty At All , Its Ok , Keep It That Way. C.R.Y.S.T.A.L.I.L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.A.L.W.A.Y.S.N.O.M.A.T.T.E.R.W.H.A.T.H.A.P.P.E.N.S. <3

Not Good In Anything

Hey Boys And Girls Reading This , I Was Never Good In Anything B4 Except Games . My Parents Used To Say Im Useless . Yes I Am , i Realised That Now . Im Only Good In Games , Not Studies , Not Cooking , And Especially Not BGR(Boy Girl Relationship) . Plus , Im Ugly But Wad Can I Do? From My Primary School Life Till Now , I Have Been Single . All Because Is Tio Rejected Or They Was Snatched From Me. Haiz , This Is Life , Only Now I Can Move On Painfully .

free at last

hey boys and girls , im finally free from my job. i resigned and im kinda bored at home. im just staring at my four walls now . of course im thinking of her too . somehow her looks just appeared in my mind and cant stop thinking . yea anyway shes taken , she dun belong to me . i might as well just quietly watch her leave my side . guess that she is not the one for me. im such a failure . i might as well end my life .

Maybe resigning

Im maybe resigning from my job. Because of this job, i had lost many important things. Especially love. I lost the girl i love very much because of this stupid job. I decided to resign after wad happened. Hopr that i can stop crying now.. Crystal , please dun leave me .. I am willing to change for u .

Damn...

i cried for 2 hrs and 13 mins today. just because of something . from my previous post u all might be able to guess why i am crying. i just miss her badly and want her to be mine but things turns out the opposite way.. now she belongs to other people. i can only watch her leave my side . i regretted not talking to u in the first place crystal. i dun think i can fall asleep now.. not after wad happened today. damn im still crying while typing this post. come on samuel , stop crying.

it's too late

hey crystal. i know saying this might be too late now but i still have to say it. i love u . i know saying this doesnt make a difference and i regreted why i have to find a job. maybe if i havent find a job u might be mine now. i would rather give up my job to be with u . but everything is too late now. i cant change a thing. maybe sebastian is the one for u . im not . wish u and sebastian last long..

didnt mean to

today was quite a messed up and a confusing day. went to the movies to watch happy feet 2 with agnes,crystal,sebastian and some other friends. went to play maximum tune with sebastian b4 the movie starts.
At around 6 plus, i smsed crystal just to find out that she and sebastian was steading . i felt like crying when i saw that. crystal said that i didnt talk to her much but its not that i dun want to, its just that i dun have the time. even if i have the time, each time i sms u , u will either be sleeping or on the phone . i know my timing of smsing u is not right,but im only free at the moment, wad can i do about it? nothing. i can only watch u leave my side and see u and sebastian together which is very painful. i know i wont have a chance with u now, after wad u told me .

Ma De. Holiday Still Tio Grounded. Wdf Just Coz I Forgot To Off My Com When I Went To Bed And I Wasted 7 Pieces Of Nuggets? So Unreasonable. Holiday Still Grounded , Like That I Wish No Holiday Sua. Holiday Is For Us To Go Out And Play And Enjoy. I Tio Grounded Instead? I Hope School Dun Fking Have Holidays Now. Sorry Kelvin. Cant Go Arcade With U Tmr.

Im Bored And Awake.

ok Guys Its Crazy. Its Alr 4:12 am And Im NOT Asleep. I Feel Energetic And Feel Like Playing Maple Private Server. So Yea, I Blogged After My Dad Went Out For Work. So I Am Alone Playing Computer Now. Hope That I Can Fall Asleep Soon Or Maybe Not At All. KK See Ya Guys . =)