U Call Yourself My Brother...

Hey All... Im In A Bad Mood Now So I Thought Blogging Might Help. What Happened Was I Was Playing Audition With Kelvin And Sharlene.Then Halfway Audition Crashed,Again. So I Felt Bored And Called Kelvin.Coincidentally,Sharlene Was On The Line Too.So The Call Only Lasted About 1Min For Me. Apparently Kelvin Asked Me To Hang Up. I Did And I Smsed Him And Asked Y He Asked Me To Hang Up.He Replied This "You Guys No Talk, You Want Waste Phone Bill Meh?" .FYI: My Phone Bill My Problem .Why U HeckCare So Much? i Replied "Cannot Meh?". And Yet He Replied Me A Long Message Which Is " Thats Is Why i Asked You To Hang.Then I Talk To Her What I Need To Talk.Because I Call Her First.Then I Ask You Hang First." After Looking This SMS, I Felt Pissed Off. Just Because I Called Second Means I Need Hang First? Get A Life Man. My Phone Bill Also Not U Pay. U Scare Ur Phone Bill Expensive, Dun use Phone La. Use Phone For Fuck? Anyway I Now Want To Be Left Alone. Plz Dun Talk To Me Except My Baby <3 .

sad life

Cant Forget Her No Matter Wad I Do. I Already Tried To Think Of Other Things But It Doesnt Work. I Used A Penknife To Make A Slight Cut On My Right Hand Yesterday. Guess That I Loved Her Too Much Its Crazy. I Just Cant Face The Reality That Shes Taken.Someone Please Help Me, Im Going Crazy Any Minute Now. If This Continues , I Might Not Even Survive For The Next Few Weeks. Please Any1 Just Talk To Me To Make Me Happy So That I Can Forget Her. PLEASE

Another new record

Omg guys its crazy. I havent slept for like 5 days. Even if i did its only 1hr sleep. Wahahaha. For sure get panda eyes. :p . Well so here i am posting 1hr befpre my alarm clock goes off. Gotta wake at 6am to go to health promotion board for spine checkup. This checkup very mafan de. Everytime morning de . Wan play games also cannot. Hahas. Maybe after the checkup i will come home and play maple !! Choing lvls for 3rd job , jiayous samuel , 5 more levels. :)

New record

Hi guys. I had a new record. I havent slept for 3 days in a row. Tonned the whole night. :)

Dun know wad happened

Hi every1 . Ever since crystal told me that she and sebastian were steading. I felt like crying everyday especially midnight. I woke up today morning just to find myself crying. I woke up and my eyes were watery. Whenever i think of her, i feel that i have let her down. I felt like crying but i told myself to be strong.and ever since that incident, i have always be tonning everyday. Each day i will at least cry once for her. Now i know to cherish wad is important to me before it's too late. But im too late now , she cant return to me. I just have to move on painfully.


P.S Crystal , i love you ...

Playing maple

Hi everyone. Im playing maple atm. Dun feel like sleeping. Hahas . Yea im choinging levels as im curious about the 3rd and 4th job skills . Although its late , i dun feel like tired . Maybe i slept too long yesterday.and of course im thinking of her. :) . Nights to those who are turning in for the night.

It's True

Hey Crystal , It's True That I Love You . But I Never Do Anything To Show It Because I Know That U Belong To Sebastian Now . So Please , Dun Say I Dun Mean It Again. I Feel Hurt Whenever You Say That . Dun Feel Guilty , Its My Fault For Falling In Love With You . If I Cry , U Dun Need Feel Guilty Too . Maybe If You Are Not Feeling Guilty At All , Its Ok , Keep It That Way. C.R.Y.S.T.A.L.I.L.O.V.E.Y.O.U.A.L.W.A.Y.S.N.O.M.A.T.T.E.R.W.H.A.T.H.A.P.P.E.N.S. <3

Not Good In Anything

Hey Boys And Girls Reading This , I Was Never Good In Anything B4 Except Games . My Parents Used To Say Im Useless . Yes I Am , i Realised That Now . Im Only Good In Games , Not Studies , Not Cooking , And Especially Not BGR(Boy Girl Relationship) . Plus , Im Ugly But Wad Can I Do? From My Primary School Life Till Now , I Have Been Single . All Because Is Tio Rejected Or They Was Snatched From Me. Haiz , This Is Life , Only Now I Can Move On Painfully .

free at last

hey boys and girls , im finally free from my job. i resigned and im kinda bored at home. im just staring at my four walls now . of course im thinking of her too . somehow her looks just appeared in my mind and cant stop thinking . yea anyway shes taken , she dun belong to me . i might as well just quietly watch her leave my side . guess that she is not the one for me. im such a failure . i might as well end my life .

Maybe resigning

Im maybe resigning from my job. Because of this job, i had lost many important things. Especially love. I lost the girl i love very much because of this stupid job. I decided to resign after wad happened. Hopr that i can stop crying now.. Crystal , please dun leave me .. I am willing to change for u .

Damn...

i cried for 2 hrs and 13 mins today. just because of something . from my previous post u all might be able to guess why i am crying. i just miss her badly and want her to be mine but things turns out the opposite way.. now she belongs to other people. i can only watch her leave my side . i regretted not talking to u in the first place crystal. i dun think i can fall asleep now.. not after wad happened today. damn im still crying while typing this post. come on samuel , stop crying.

it's too late

hey crystal. i know saying this might be too late now but i still have to say it. i love u . i know saying this doesnt make a difference and i regreted why i have to find a job. maybe if i havent find a job u might be mine now. i would rather give up my job to be with u . but everything is too late now. i cant change a thing. maybe sebastian is the one for u . im not . wish u and sebastian last long..

didnt mean to

today was quite a messed up and a confusing day. went to the movies to watch happy feet 2 with agnes,crystal,sebastian and some other friends. went to play maximum tune with sebastian b4 the movie starts.
At around 6 plus, i smsed crystal just to find out that she and sebastian was steading . i felt like crying when i saw that. crystal said that i didnt talk to her much but its not that i dun want to, its just that i dun have the time. even if i have the time, each time i sms u , u will either be sleeping or on the phone . i know my timing of smsing u is not right,but im only free at the moment, wad can i do about it? nothing. i can only watch u leave my side and see u and sebastian together which is very painful. i know i wont have a chance with u now, after wad u told me .

Ma De. Holiday Still Tio Grounded. Wdf Just Coz I Forgot To Off My Com When I Went To Bed And I Wasted 7 Pieces Of Nuggets? So Unreasonable. Holiday Still Grounded , Like That I Wish No Holiday Sua. Holiday Is For Us To Go Out And Play And Enjoy. I Tio Grounded Instead? I Hope School Dun Fking Have Holidays Now. Sorry Kelvin. Cant Go Arcade With U Tmr.

Im Bored And Awake.

ok Guys Its Crazy. Its Alr 4:12 am And Im NOT Asleep. I Feel Energetic And Feel Like Playing Maple Private Server. So Yea, I Blogged After My Dad Went Out For Work. So I Am Alone Playing Computer Now. Hope That I Can Fall Asleep Soon Or Maybe Not At All. KK See Ya Guys . =)

First Day Of Holiday.

Ok So This Is The First Day Of My Holidays Which Is Kinda Boring . This Morning I Went Arcade To Play Maximum Tune . Then At Around 10 Plus I Played Audition With Sharlene And Kelvin Till 1 Plus am? Sharlene Needs To Off Coz Her Mum Is Nagging. After She Offed. Me And Kelvin Talked Alot About Our Personal Affairs. And Now We Are Still Talking On FaceBook. So Yea. Sayonara Every1